QCJ Literature

Friends,

QCJ literature are blogs when weblogs are not yet in. When internet was not yet invented. When I was incarcerated inside Quezon City Jail for a crime I did not commit.

Jail is were you find your real self. Not the Church, not school or not your community of individuals who uses the name of God in vain and shouts amen in the beginning of each sentence and at the end of every sentence. Fucking hypocrites. Show that brother Juan of yours a beautiful woman who can answer his desires and he will lick her clit! Sister Julia who goes to the Bible study everyday but curses the maid who forgot to serve her coffee! Banal na aso, santong kabayo ang puta!

Yes, stay in jail. Visit maximum security in Muntinlupa and you will find your match. The inmates are more disciplined than the policeman in Crame, than the prison guard in QCJ. Real people are in jail.

Yet society look at them as nuisance when they get out of jail. The nuisance inmates are the inmates your politico saves from Station9 of Quezon City or Station1 of Caloocan. The inmates who came out of the Big House, The White Castle are real people and are better people than you and me.

QCJ Literature is being published in the blog. I just want to share some thoughts, wrong grammar as they are, are products of sleeping with hard-core criminals in QCJ.

Roooooaaaaar!!!!!

QCJ Literature: Untitled3

April 21, 2007
2:41 AM

Untitled3
November 11, 1995

Pasko'y malapit na
Nakakulong pa rin sila
Hindi makakalaya
Dahil wala pa'ng piyansa.

Hindi rin makakapagpiyansa
Itong mga walang pera
Gusto ring makipag-areglo
Nitong mga _________ng tarantado.

Mga BRODS kong nanghihina na
Tapusin nitong nais nila
Dalawang milyon ang hinihingi
Para sa pamilya ni ________ na tatanga-tanga!

Kami itong naperwisyo
Kami pa itong magbabayad kuno.
Mga putang ina nila!
Sila dapat lahat ay namatay na!

Saan ako tutungo
Pati mga dalaw ko'y naglaho na
Mga taga-Arellano
Kinalimutan na akong totoo.

Sina Helen, Rahnel at Vinna,
Fatima, Joy at Corrie,
Pati na si Julie
Lalung-lalo na si Sherill.

Mga kaibigang itinuring
Hindi ko alam kong dapat nga na tawagin.
Ako'y naging totoo
At hindi naging bolero...

Iba na nga siguro ang takbo
Ng puso at isipan ko.
O 'di kaya'y sila ay wala na..

Hindi ko na iisipin na sila ay babalik pa.

:-(

QCJ Literature: IKAW

April 21, 2007
2:34 AM

IKAW
September 28, 1995

Ikaw ay pinagmasdan
at naging palaisipan.
Ano ka ba talaga
sa aking kahaharapan.

Sa kaunting oras
nang iyong pagdaan,
Dito sa buhay kong
walang kasiglahan.

Ako'y nabulabog at
naghanap ng sagot,
Sa mga tanong kong
sa dami sandakot.

Ngayong hinog na
itong iyong alaala,
Baka p'wede na akong lumaya.

Sa sakit at hapdi
ng iyong pagdapo,
Na kung ilang gabi
ika'y di napapaamo.

Mata mong nakikita
ay aking pipisain.
Lahat ng nana ay papalabasin.

Itong pamamaga ay
siguradong gagaling.
Aking paglaya sa
putang inang PIGSA!

... masisilayan - bukas hanggang sa magdamag.

Haaay...

QCJ Literature: Untitled2

April 21, 2007
2:28 AM

UNTITLED2
September 27, 1995

ako'y nag-iisa
at walang kasama
sa aking paglalakbay
sa mundo ng buhay

ako'y nag-iisa
at walang kasama
saan na nga kaya
ang aking mga kaibigan

ako'y nag-iisa
at walang kasama
meron pa nga kayang
nakakakilala

ako'y nag-iisa
at walang kasama
natatandaan pa kaya nila
ang kanilang mga pangako

ako'y nag-iisa
at walang kasama
sa malungkot na selda
ng aking bagong buhay

ako'y nag-iisa
at walang kasama
sana'y muling makita
kayong mga minamahal

QCJ Literature: Untitled

April 21, 2007
2:13 AM

UNTITLED
September 27, 1995
(Edited July 17, 2005)

there was a pretty rose thornful
beautiful blooming at the peak
of the highest mountain ranges
princes from all the land aspired

for its beauty, none was worthy
but just one less fortunate soul
but one that stood far from the rest
nothing to offer but courage

to love and to care forever
leaving behind family and
all treasures of this world to reach
and love this one and only rose

QCJ Literature: BAKAL NA REHAS

April 21, 2007
2:09 AM

BAKAL NA REHAS
August 22, 1995; QCJail

ang humiwalay sa atin
sumira sa kinabukasan
at sa mga pangarap
na s'yang inaasam natin...

ang nasa pagitan
ng aking mga kaibigan
na yata'y kumalimot
na sa akin...

matibay, matatag
hindi mawawasak
hindi natitinag...

ang magpapalaya...
puso mong nagmamahal sa akin!

PRECIOUS STONES

April 21, 2007
1:41 AM

DIAMOND. A diamond is forever. A treasure you can compare to a tree you planted and weathered every storm that passed it bye and after several years of heavy rains, drought and threat of illegal logging, it continued to live and bear fruits.

This stone you give to your sweetheart for your engagement. An event before going into marriage. Elegant, expensive but you do not care because... a diamond is forever.

OPAL. 14 is a significant number for the Scintillan family. Opal is the stone for the 14th month of marriage. The Romans believe that the owners of Opal stones will bring their owners powers of foresight and prophecy. This is also a token of purity and hope. Peoples of the eastern world believe that it fell from the heavens and it is sacred.

EMERALD. Emerald is now F. Ortigas Jr. Avenue. Funny but true. It is the symbol for the 35th year of marriage. The Emerald is believed to improve the wearers memory, sharpen their wit, enhance intellligence and bestow eloquence. It is also the symbol of the Greek goddess Venus. Other than bringing sincerity and giving the ability to foresee the future and bring good fortune, Venus is also a symbol of sensuality.

RUBY. Hmmm..... do I have to explain more? Believed to bring good luck to gamblers and lovers. That is Ruby.

TURQUOISE. In ancient Mexico, this stone is reserved for gods and not for worn by mere mortals. This is the birthstone for the month of December.

TOPAZ. This stone is believed to change colors in the presence of poison.

Ahhh... stones. Just like women. Precious, expensive, elegant, extravagant, hard to find.

Angst

April 21, 2007
1:05 AM

Am I living a life worth living for?

I laid down my life for my brods and my friends. Yet are they worth laying down my life for?

I manage people. I don't treat them as my subordinates but as my friends. When they turn their back on you as their superior and as their friend, are they worth it?

I love a woman. When she flirts around, consider other things more important than myself and do not treat me as her partner, is she worth loving?

I am loyal to the hands that feed me. I treat my bosses as my friends. I treat my fellow managers as my friends and as teammates. When they treat me like shit, are they worth staying for?

So many choices and at the end of the day you choose to give a little of yourself for others, just like what the Christian way of life should be, and find out that you are just one individual that is useful to these people at the moment. When they do not need you, yes, you are shit.

So what do you do?

To hell with them, too. Give them a dose of their own medicine. Treat them like shit, too. You know you are better than them. Oh, yes, you are. They were just lucky individuals who got richer earlier than yourself. You'll get there. You will be rich soon. They are just saying bad things about you because they know how to kiss the ass of your bosses... not just ass but even dicks and balls. You're not that kind of person, dude.

Work and give them what their money is worth. No friendliness. No loyalties. Its just their money that they pay you and your job.

Do not give more than what is asked of you.

Life is a give and take relationship. Do not give more, take more. To hell with them. What is important is you are happy, not them.

Think more of yourself than them.

Your Sunday school teacher or your kindergarten teacher is very wrong when they told you to be selfless. Hell, you give your right hand and they want your left hand, too. Fuck them.

We are born slaves and you know we are not. We will fight until our last drop of blood gives us freedom from tyranny. Tyranny of the capitalists, religion, greed and selfish individuals.

We have to be cruel inorder to be kind!

Alba gubra!